Through my experiences on this journey of gratitude I have learned that expressing thankfulness is one aspect of gratitude. Feeling gratitude is another aspect. Being in the state of gratitude amplifies both expression (thoughts) and feeling and creates a different energy--a new vibration that is more powerful than its separate parts. Being in the state of being called gratitude, this new energy moves from being in the mind only into the body and expands both. It truly becomes a body-mind-spirit experience of gratitude.
I felt the shift more deeply this morning. Instead of my awareness being experienced in my mind, my conscious awareness going up & out, the expansion of gratitude dropped down & in so that I experienced body-mind-spirit all in gratitude at once--as one being state.
This was an experience of deepening that opened greater understanding of who I am beyond this physical body. I feel a healing of separation happening, not yet complete, but spreading. A blending that is at once curious and exciting.
You know that experience where you reach a certain point and the experience takes on a life of its own and continues to grow and spread exponentially? It feels very much like the beginning of new life--three things (thoughts, feeling and state of being) coming together in creation. The big bang theory. The beginning of new life. An expansion in control of itself.
I feel it in my cells as well as my thoughts. Something new and different has been creating and is developing organically on its own.
Just as I was excited about meeting the new life that was growing within me each time I was pregnant, I feel new life growing within me now--body-mind-spirit and I am excited about the possibilities and the final outcome when what has been created is birthed into my life.
Today I feel a new state of gratitude growing within me and I am most thankful for the changes I feel. This journey is giving birth to a new me and I am excited about meeting her when she is ready to be born anew into this reality.
As always, your comments, questions and stories are most welcome.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
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Sunday, November 27, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
My Journey of Gratitude - Day 14
"People are about as happy as they make up their minds to be." Abraham Lincoln
That quotes floats through my mind as I begin my time with gratitude. How happy am I allowing myself to be and what stops me from being happy all the time? Interesting thought to ponder and it opens many doors hidden away in my mind.
As I continue spending time in the state of gratitude I find that all that is not gratitude--all that cannot exist in this energy--is free to roll on up and out of me. My initial reaction is to stop and ponder each thought and each feeling; wanting to understand and solve. That's part of our human nature and the function of our conscious mind, that desire to know the 'why' of every situation.
But asking 'why' will only give you the story surrounding the situation; it will never give you the truth that lies within. For that you must sit within the middle of it all, giving thanks for whatever is. As a teacher of mine often says "Understanding is just the booby prize." Consciously choosing what you want instead of what you currently have--there is the power and the freedom to create change.
To be stand in the middle of your life situation and say "No matter what has happened to me in the past--this is what I choose today. This is how I choose to live today." That is true self-empowerment.
Gratitude comes in many forms and some days are easier than others to feel thankful. Today gratitude showed up as patience and trust.
Patience that saying 'thank you' in the face of doubt is enough, and trust that all is well regardless of what I see happening--or not happening--around me.
So today I am grateful for my doubts, my faith and my journey, bumps and all.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
That quotes floats through my mind as I begin my time with gratitude. How happy am I allowing myself to be and what stops me from being happy all the time? Interesting thought to ponder and it opens many doors hidden away in my mind.
As I continue spending time in the state of gratitude I find that all that is not gratitude--all that cannot exist in this energy--is free to roll on up and out of me. My initial reaction is to stop and ponder each thought and each feeling; wanting to understand and solve. That's part of our human nature and the function of our conscious mind, that desire to know the 'why' of every situation.
But asking 'why' will only give you the story surrounding the situation; it will never give you the truth that lies within. For that you must sit within the middle of it all, giving thanks for whatever is. As a teacher of mine often says "Understanding is just the booby prize." Consciously choosing what you want instead of what you currently have--there is the power and the freedom to create change.
To be stand in the middle of your life situation and say "No matter what has happened to me in the past--this is what I choose today. This is how I choose to live today." That is true self-empowerment.
Gratitude comes in many forms and some days are easier than others to feel thankful. Today gratitude showed up as patience and trust.
Patience that saying 'thank you' in the face of doubt is enough, and trust that all is well regardless of what I see happening--or not happening--around me.
So today I am grateful for my doubts, my faith and my journey, bumps and all.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
Thursday, November 10, 2011
My Journey of Gratitude - Day 9
My vulnerability is my strength and I am grateful for that realization.
A couple of things I want to talk about today. For years I've been meditating and all those years I always needed to hold a pillow or cover my solar plexus up in someway. Couldn't meditate without that. This morning during my 10 minutes of gratitude I noticed that I was not covering myself up and hadn't for the past couple of days. That is a huge shift for me. To be open and vulnerable with no need to protect parts of me. It became so natural to not put a pillow or blanket in front of me that I didn't notice it for 3 days. For this new openness I am grateful.
Until yesterday I didn't realize how vulnerable being in gratitude makes you. In fact I hadn't even thought of myself as being more vulnerable until an experience yesterday with a person who made a few mean-spirited remarks to me for reasons of her own. My first reaction was to feel hurt and shut down, but that is now such a foreign feeling that I was immediately aware of the shift from open gratitude to fear.
You see to me being vulnerable use to mean being weak, helpless and open for hurt. It meant that I was allowing anyone to come along and behave badly towards me, so no way was I going to be vulnerable!
My experience with gratitude this morning showed me the true meaning of vulnerability--being fully present in my life, in my body and in the moment. Fully present with myself and for others. My vulnerability is my strength, my gift to myself and to others. For only in the present and in my presence do I allow myself to be known.
Being vulnerable is my strength. It is what makes me the healer and teacher that I am. This journey of gratitude has shown me how I have closed myself off in the past and how much more Life and Light I have when I am open, vulnerable and present.
There will certainly be times when I run into people who behave in unkind ways; we are all doing the best we can with what we have and so many people still live from their pain rather than their true nature. And I accept that people just do what people do and it is never personal really. There will be those times, but the difference today is that I know and understand that in any moment that I lose my presence, I will remember that I now have a higher value on living from a state of gratitude and can return to being present with a simple decision.
So to the person who was so unkind--I am grateful for your presence in my life and the gift of understanding that I received through your action. And to my friends that I turned to when I felt misunderstood, I am most grateful for the mirror you always hold up so that I can see my true reflection of who I am as a woman, a friend, a healer, a teacher.
My vulnerability is my strength and for that I am grateful today.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
A couple of things I want to talk about today. For years I've been meditating and all those years I always needed to hold a pillow or cover my solar plexus up in someway. Couldn't meditate without that. This morning during my 10 minutes of gratitude I noticed that I was not covering myself up and hadn't for the past couple of days. That is a huge shift for me. To be open and vulnerable with no need to protect parts of me. It became so natural to not put a pillow or blanket in front of me that I didn't notice it for 3 days. For this new openness I am grateful.
Until yesterday I didn't realize how vulnerable being in gratitude makes you. In fact I hadn't even thought of myself as being more vulnerable until an experience yesterday with a person who made a few mean-spirited remarks to me for reasons of her own. My first reaction was to feel hurt and shut down, but that is now such a foreign feeling that I was immediately aware of the shift from open gratitude to fear.
You see to me being vulnerable use to mean being weak, helpless and open for hurt. It meant that I was allowing anyone to come along and behave badly towards me, so no way was I going to be vulnerable!
My experience with gratitude this morning showed me the true meaning of vulnerability--being fully present in my life, in my body and in the moment. Fully present with myself and for others. My vulnerability is my strength, my gift to myself and to others. For only in the present and in my presence do I allow myself to be known.
Being vulnerable is my strength. It is what makes me the healer and teacher that I am. This journey of gratitude has shown me how I have closed myself off in the past and how much more Life and Light I have when I am open, vulnerable and present.
There will certainly be times when I run into people who behave in unkind ways; we are all doing the best we can with what we have and so many people still live from their pain rather than their true nature. And I accept that people just do what people do and it is never personal really. There will be those times, but the difference today is that I know and understand that in any moment that I lose my presence, I will remember that I now have a higher value on living from a state of gratitude and can return to being present with a simple decision.
So to the person who was so unkind--I am grateful for your presence in my life and the gift of understanding that I received through your action. And to my friends that I turned to when I felt misunderstood, I am most grateful for the mirror you always hold up so that I can see my true reflection of who I am as a woman, a friend, a healer, a teacher.
My vulnerability is my strength and for that I am grateful today.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
Monday, November 7, 2011
My Journey of Gratitude - Day 6
What started out as an Experiment has now become a Journey. My experience so far in 6 days of spending 10 minutes a day in Gratitude has taken on a life of its own and I'm now on a Journey of Gratitude, curious to see where this particular journey takes me.
Gratitude shows up in a myriad of forms-words of thankfulness, music that soothes the soul, visions and symbols, dreams, feelings, new rhythms and beats. There is no one way to be in the state of gratitude--only your way of being there. That may remain the same for you or, like me, change and move differently day to day.
Some days it is easy to feel the flow of gratitude coursing through my being and other days, not so much. This morning is one of those 'not so much' days. At first I was worried that I couldn't feel that 'mountain top' experience of gratefulness and then I spent precious moment trying to make it happen.
"What a stupid experiment I'm doing! I MUST be grateful! Let me just change that ingratitude to gratitude right now."
Then I heard my inner voice tell me 'Relax into this moment and allow it to be whatever it is.' So I did. I took a deep breath and made the choice (and ALL change begins with a choice) and let go of my preconceived ideas of what I thought being in gratitude should be and allowed myself to just be in the flow of 'what is.'
That doesn't mean that I'm not grateful. I am. I still said my gratitude prayers, thanking & blessing all that I have in my life. I just wasn't 'feeling' it if you know what I mean.
Life has an ebb and a flow--like the tide. So I sat and focused on the ebb and flow of my breathing. In and out. Breathing in and bringing in. Breathing out and letting go. In and out.
Meister Eckhart said "If all you ever say in your whole life is 'thank you' that will suffice.'
So for today I just said 'thank you that I am alive' and I trust that is enough.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
Gratitude shows up in a myriad of forms-words of thankfulness, music that soothes the soul, visions and symbols, dreams, feelings, new rhythms and beats. There is no one way to be in the state of gratitude--only your way of being there. That may remain the same for you or, like me, change and move differently day to day.
Some days it is easy to feel the flow of gratitude coursing through my being and other days, not so much. This morning is one of those 'not so much' days. At first I was worried that I couldn't feel that 'mountain top' experience of gratefulness and then I spent precious moment trying to make it happen.
"What a stupid experiment I'm doing! I MUST be grateful! Let me just change that ingratitude to gratitude right now."
Then I heard my inner voice tell me 'Relax into this moment and allow it to be whatever it is.' So I did. I took a deep breath and made the choice (and ALL change begins with a choice) and let go of my preconceived ideas of what I thought being in gratitude should be and allowed myself to just be in the flow of 'what is.'
That doesn't mean that I'm not grateful. I am. I still said my gratitude prayers, thanking & blessing all that I have in my life. I just wasn't 'feeling' it if you know what I mean.
Life has an ebb and a flow--like the tide. So I sat and focused on the ebb and flow of my breathing. In and out. Breathing in and bringing in. Breathing out and letting go. In and out.
Meister Eckhart said "If all you ever say in your whole life is 'thank you' that will suffice.'
So for today I just said 'thank you that I am alive' and I trust that is enough.
In gratitude,
Bonnie
Saturday, October 8, 2011
We did it! WooHoo!
We did it! Today our Brave Woman vision was successfully launched with our free teleseminar Command Your Courage-Unlock Your Greatness. The vision that we have held so dearly and worked so diligently to bring into being is here and we are so very grateful for the hundreds of women (and men!) who registered to help us launch our dream.
And a special thank you to our Angels of Support--women we love dearly who helped spread the word about this new global community for women supporting women in living their greatness, their power and their courage. We could not have done it without your encouragement and support.
Not only do you have this blog as a resource for support, we have created a yahoo group called The Brave Woman where you can connect directly with other women to discuss topics of interest, ask questions and share stories about living The Brave Woman Within.
To join the Brave Woman yahoo group visit http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/thebravewoman
Next step in the vision is the series of teleseminars we are offering design to
help you throw open the curtains and step into the Light of your greatness.
Set your calendar for October 22nd at 9:00 pacific time for
The Brave Woman: Breaking Your Trance of Scarcity!
We are interested in what you have to say about being the Brave Woman in your life. Where are you struggling and what do you need? Where are you succeeding and how can we support you in even greater success?
Let's hear from you! This group is for every Brave Woman.
We witness your greatness,
Bonnie and Katie
And a special thank you to our Angels of Support--women we love dearly who helped spread the word about this new global community for women supporting women in living their greatness, their power and their courage. We could not have done it without your encouragement and support.
Not only do you have this blog as a resource for support, we have created a yahoo group called The Brave Woman where you can connect directly with other women to discuss topics of interest, ask questions and share stories about living The Brave Woman Within.
To join the Brave Woman yahoo group visit http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/thebravewoman
Next step in the vision is the series of teleseminars we are offering design to
help you throw open the curtains and step into the Light of your greatness.
Set your calendar for October 22nd at 9:00 pacific time for
The Brave Woman: Breaking Your Trance of Scarcity!
We are interested in what you have to say about being the Brave Woman in your life. Where are you struggling and what do you need? Where are you succeeding and how can we support you in even greater success?
Let's hear from you! This group is for every Brave Woman.
We witness your greatness,
Bonnie and Katie
Monday, October 3, 2011
Hi - just in case you haven't heard - we have a terrific free seminar coming up for you on October 8th. It is a teleseminar so it is easy to attend either by phone or as a webcast, and if you can't attend - then sign up anyway and listen to the free replay after the seminar.
Most of you know that our free seminars are fully functional seminars - meaning - you learn real stuff AND you get into thrival mode with The One Command process and with one of Bonnie's brilliant meditations. All our classes are designed to be transformational on all levels of your life.
Email bonnie@inner-resources.net or katie@commandingwealth.com if you have more questions.
Most of you know that our free seminars are fully functional seminars - meaning - you learn real stuff AND you get into thrival mode with The One Command process and with one of Bonnie's brilliant meditations. All our classes are designed to be transformational on all levels of your life.
Email bonnie@inner-resources.net or katie@commandingwealth.com if you have more questions.
“Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom.
Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power.”
Tao Te Ching
We believe that every woman carries the seeds within her of true wisdom and true power. But the question is—Do you believe it of yourself?
Have you been sensing a:
- Restlessness that won’t go away no matter how much you ignore it
- Destiny calling you to something greater—but are afraid to answer
- Desire to share your values and vision with others—but don’t know how
- Need to step out now and just do it—whatever your “It” may be
Or are you tired of constantly Performing, Pleasing, Perfecting and Proving
to others that you are worthy and deserving?
This really is an exciting time to be a woman right now. Things are changing
and possibilities abound for you as a woman. You feel it, but you may not believe it yet.
Begin your transformation process of greater self-love, self-acceptance and coming ‘home’ to your body in new ways right now.
Using the simple, yet powerful 6-step process of The One Command, you let go
of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace, honor and respect your
of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace, honor and respect your
Brave Woman.
In this teleseminar you:
- Remember how good it feels to be a woman
- Find the courage to live as a Brave Woman
- Feel the connectedness with all women and the earth that nourishes you
- Experience the power of change with The One Command
Awaken the Brave Woman in you now.
Take this Journey of Courage with other women wanting what you want—to live an Authentic Life as the Brave Woman that you are.
Take the first step on your Journey of Courage now in this Free Teleseminar—Command Your Courage—Unlock Your Greatness.
Register Now for this free teleseminar
Invite your women friends to join you on this Free Teleseminar. We have built a support system for all women to gather together for encouragement, support, love and acceptance. And we’ll talk more about the many ways you can participate on October 8th.
Invite your women friends to join you on this Free Teleseminar. We have built a support system for all women to gather together for encouragement, support, love and acceptance. And we’ll talk more about the many ways you can participate on October 8th.
As always, this teleseminar includes intensive belief work using The One Command along with a special meditation to enhance and integrate your healing.
Upon registration you will receive a handout with a brief exercise. Completing
this exercise before the teleseminar will greatly enhance your healing experience.
Can’t attend live? No worries! This teleseminar will be recorded and the
free replay made available to you the next day.
We are excited to see you there!
Bonnie & Katie
Thursday, September 15, 2011
It's not your beginnings that matter most!
I was drawn to see the movie Kung Fu Panda 2 today and I was curious what message it might have for me. Anytime I’m drawn to a movie it’s because there is something for me to pay attention to in it. And there was!
The movie was fun to watch, but here is the ‘gem’ I walked away with—and in a kid’s movie too.
Even though your beginnings weren’t happy, it doesn’t matter. It isn’t your beginnings that make you who you are. What matters is who you choose to be now. And it is who you choose to be that makes you who you are now.
I felt much of what has been bothering me recently dissolve and resolve itself. TODAY is what matters. Who I choose to be TODAY is what’s important. How I choose to feel TODAY; how I choose to behave TODAY—that is what makes me who I am.
Regardless of your beginnings, you have a choice to be or not to be, to change or stay the same, to heal or not, to use your voice or to remain silent, to stand in your courage or continue to be afraid. There is great power in that message—It is who you choose to be that makes you who you are.
Today I choose to be a Brave Woman walking my Journey of Courage, using my voice for
healing and standing in my own truth.
Who do you choose to be today?
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Today is 9/11
Over the years of doing my heart-work from psychology to coaching to seminars - I am often prompted in what I offer from the experiences of my own life and challenges or joys - and I also watch for what is showing up for those in my tribe (my friends, family, colleague, clients) - and focus on what is coming up for them.
I am watching the 9/11 tribute in Shanksville right now and thinking about the heroism of 'just people', people rising to an unprecedented situation - who found out what was happening on other planes and acted without question - out of the fullness of their hearts.
We all have that brave selves inside, the one that jumps to do what is needed in the moment. If we are looking for a way to change our world - jumping in to help build a school somewhere (by contribution or participation), to participate in Random Acts of Kindness like the ones going on in Seattle today, to deciding to elect people who actually care at least as much about all the people of our country as they do about their own ambitions, to being our own hero and the hero of our children.
This cannot help but be a day of reflection no matter where we live, and when we live from our spirit - we can't go wrong.
Love and Blessings, Katie
I am watching the 9/11 tribute in Shanksville right now and thinking about the heroism of 'just people', people rising to an unprecedented situation - who found out what was happening on other planes and acted without question - out of the fullness of their hearts.
We all have that brave selves inside, the one that jumps to do what is needed in the moment. If we are looking for a way to change our world - jumping in to help build a school somewhere (by contribution or participation), to participate in Random Acts of Kindness like the ones going on in Seattle today, to deciding to elect people who actually care at least as much about all the people of our country as they do about their own ambitions, to being our own hero and the hero of our children.
This cannot help but be a day of reflection no matter where we live, and when we live from our spirit - we can't go wrong.
Love and Blessings, Katie
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Falling Out of Love with My Drama
Falling Out of Love with My Drama
I have been fortunate to study with some of the most amazing teachers over the decades, and all of them have talked about letting go of the drama in your life.
It took me awhile to truly let go of it all and learn to live in the present, to be present with my own life and with everyone in it.
I found that I took myself through several steps to get to the Freedom I desired:
Step 1- Forgiveness
In order to start the clearing out process I realized that forgiveness was the key that would open the lock to all else that was within. Even though I knew better, it was still easy to get caught up in the idea that by forgiving the person, I was approving the act. And also that forgiveness was for the other person when it is really always for us and our own inner peace. Once I got myself past those old mind-sets, it was all downhill from there – simply a process of letting go.
Step 2 – My History
How many of us are ‘married’ to our stories. It is easy to believe that if we give up our ‘story’ we will no longer be ourselves and we will never be able to rectify what has happened and create something new. The truth is, it is your stories that keep you stuck and interfere with your capacity to create the new life you want. Once you choose to create what you want instead of what you have, you have no need for what was.
Step 3 – My Future
Finally I got to the point of looking ‘forward’ even though I am aware from quantum physics that there is no time – just ask Einstein. For me this was sort of a way station. It was a place I lived for a while until I really understood that my future is right now. It was useful in the sense that at least I had separated out from my past.
Step 4 – My Now
This is where I want to live for the duration. Staying in the present is so much more interesting than you might ever imagine. This is where your greater capacity lives and this is where your joy resides
In the present you are always fresh, new and available to every idea, opportunity and resource that your world is offering to you.
I wouldn’t choose to live anywhere else.
Love and blessings, Katie
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